Have you ever had one of those relationships, that no matter what your normal thoughts are, you lose your head when it comes to them? Good, so I'm not alone then. In the past when I was done with someone, I was D O N E, no second guessing, no returning calls or texts or emails, just bah bye for you now. However, in the last 18 months, I have had this toxicity that no matter how bad I view the treatment to me, much to my friends chagrin, I continue to have a relationship with this person. I recently stooped to an all new low. I texted him and told him I was stopping by to speak with him. HAVE I GONE MAD? I'm going with too many unanswered texts, a few too many brews and good times around a pool with my peeps, and I lost my senses. Did he answer the door you ask, no he did not.
When I woke up this morning I prayed I had dreamt that whole scenario, but alas, I did not. I did however, delete all the texts we have shared and next I will delete his phone number. I have this weird rule that if I haven't spoken with you in 6 months, I delete you as a contact. This part may be long overdue for him, but if I feel ready to do before 6 months, I will. I beat myself up pretty good about this transgression and as always my "inner circle" was super supportive. They almost made me feel like I wasn't a lunatic or a stalker. But I can promise this is one stupid regret that will never get repeated, LIKE EVER! .......Cue Taylor Swift's song "We are never".
Happy Monday Peeps, and remember if you've done something out of character, see why, I'm sure it's not you, it's all them. :)
