My fascination with Psychics and the beyond started at an early age. I remember watching the Amazing Kriskin bend spoons and other metal items, and then there were others who could talk to the beyond. I have always felt I had "people" around me even when I was all alone. I thought it was just me being the weirdo I am. But alas, I actually do have "people" three to be exact, who surround me and give me comfort. I'm sure there are times they have all wanted to throw me against a wall or slap me upside the head, but they never leave me so even if I am walking alone at night, I'm not completely paralyzed with fear because I know I am not truly alone on my path. So what is this blog about you might wonder? Well, I went to my "Spiritual Life Coach" yesterday. This woman I have known for about 5- 6 years now, and I swear she never ages. She is still as beautiful as the day I met her. Freaking amazing.
I go to her not to get questions answered so much as validate my thoughts or beliefs. Now at times, she has given me further data that I didn't know or didn't really want to see, but all in all it's very cathartic. My sister likes to say "we go to psychics like others go to therapists". Basically, it's the same. When I was going through my divorce and my Ex requested we go see a therapist, I did just to appease his anal retentive, control freak arse. Even the therapist told him, "she doesn't need to be here, you do." hahahaha, and true to form the Ex walked out and promptly said "that guy is a quack." You don't say? All because he didn't agree with you, hmmm, now sign the papers asstard. Anyhoo, I am digressing from my all important point, me. lol
So I go see Denise, actual name not made up, and she tells me what she sees, what she thinks etc. It's always fascinating to me when she or any of the others I've been to, can actually tell me something that isn't random or an educated guess. Dodododododododo. I went to her last February 2011 and she told me my Dad would get sick and pass quite quickly, that it would be an infection they can't get rid of. Low and behold, that's exactly what happened. At the time she told me this, Dad was perfectly healthy and had no issues. When he started going down this path of not recuperating, I realized this was it. I made a conscious effort to go see him more and to really talk to him instead of just fluff talk like we normally did. My Dad wasn't really a big talker until he had a few cocktails and then you couldn't shut him up. Our conversations were basically "hey Dad how are you?" "Fine Alana, you?" Quick, easy, no thinking involved. I'm not the visceral daughter. My sister has traveled the globe and is all about World News, Politics, etc. Me? I'm more "Hey, did you see Pitbull on Dancing with the Stars last night?" kind of convo's. I CAN have the deeper conversations, but I watch who I have the discussions with. Some people fly right to insane and I don't like poking the bears with my two cents. My Ex used to drone on about Politics, Middle East, blah blah blah, "I don't care", "get away from me" was pretty much what was going on in my head as he would blather or try to have sex. And if you know my Ex, you know I'm not lying. He loved when my sister would visit because then they could have 'intelligent' conversations. Yeah whatever buddy, blow me.
Tuesday, September 25, 2012
Monday, September 3, 2012
True Story
You know? When I'm out mowing, I have a million thoughts exploding in my tiny little brain to blog about. Then I come in and go to 'share' and I'm trying to figure out what to discuss. SQUIRREL!...
Anyhoo, let's see. What do I want to shine a light on today? Hmmm, how about friends? This past week, I had a "Come to Jesus" meeting with several friends on my roster. I enjoy being the girl who can have several types of friends, if you will. The one friend you won't see in my kennel is a lying friend. Why? You ask? Because if I can't trust you then I don't want you in my life. Don't break previous plans or tell me you're going to do something and then lie to me about it. One, I can always smell a lie, and if you're lying to me about something so stupid, you don't respect me or our friendship so why even pretend to be friends. If you are in my "inner circle" I trust you explicitly. So lying or being an arse does not bode well for you. My friends know this and even though I'm pretty easy going, there are just some things I can't over look. Maybe it's because I couldn't lie if my life depended on it, seriously, I am a horrible liar. So unfortunately, if you want my honest opinion, you're going to get it and it may not be sugar coated. I'm just saying.
Having said that, why is it there are some people you let get away with 'white lies'? They didn't really lie to you per se, but they didn't tell you the full truth either. Why are there some people that you just continue to give 2nd, 3rd or even 4th chances too? I have several theories about that. Because I consider myself spiritual and believe in higher beings, sometimes I think, perhaps we were in each others lives in another time? I know there have been exes that I had prior lifetimes with. We weren't always lovers but siblings, friends etc. These are the people that when I met them, I had an instant connection to. I meet people all the time, but it's the rare one I meet that I feel pulled to, you know what I mean? Some have even annoyed the living hell out of me, but I kept them around because I couldnt let them go for whatever reason. Then there are the ones you meet and you think to yourself, "if I never see that person again, I'm OK with that." I know we always see "The heart wants what the heart wants" and this applies to friendship as well. It doesn't have to be just a potential lover or more in depth relationship. Sometimes people need you to help them to get a place they need to be and vice versus. I think we can all remember a person we either dated or was besties with where you were inseparable and then wham! They are out of your life. There are those who back away from you, (that never happens to me, I'm just telling a story here lol), and 3 months later you think to yourself, "wait a minute, I haven't spoken with so and so, but you know what? It's OK."
I guess that's why as we grow and move on or change our habits and goals, we should thank those that helped us along our paths even if we feel they didn't value us, they made us the people we are today. Sometimes that's good, sometimes it's not. It's up to you to see the difference.
Anyhoo, let's see. What do I want to shine a light on today? Hmmm, how about friends? This past week, I had a "Come to Jesus" meeting with several friends on my roster. I enjoy being the girl who can have several types of friends, if you will. The one friend you won't see in my kennel is a lying friend. Why? You ask? Because if I can't trust you then I don't want you in my life. Don't break previous plans or tell me you're going to do something and then lie to me about it. One, I can always smell a lie, and if you're lying to me about something so stupid, you don't respect me or our friendship so why even pretend to be friends. If you are in my "inner circle" I trust you explicitly. So lying or being an arse does not bode well for you. My friends know this and even though I'm pretty easy going, there are just some things I can't over look. Maybe it's because I couldn't lie if my life depended on it, seriously, I am a horrible liar. So unfortunately, if you want my honest opinion, you're going to get it and it may not be sugar coated. I'm just saying.
Having said that, why is it there are some people you let get away with 'white lies'? They didn't really lie to you per se, but they didn't tell you the full truth either. Why are there some people that you just continue to give 2nd, 3rd or even 4th chances too? I have several theories about that. Because I consider myself spiritual and believe in higher beings, sometimes I think, perhaps we were in each others lives in another time? I know there have been exes that I had prior lifetimes with. We weren't always lovers but siblings, friends etc. These are the people that when I met them, I had an instant connection to. I meet people all the time, but it's the rare one I meet that I feel pulled to, you know what I mean? Some have even annoyed the living hell out of me, but I kept them around because I couldnt let them go for whatever reason. Then there are the ones you meet and you think to yourself, "if I never see that person again, I'm OK with that." I know we always see "The heart wants what the heart wants" and this applies to friendship as well. It doesn't have to be just a potential lover or more in depth relationship. Sometimes people need you to help them to get a place they need to be and vice versus. I think we can all remember a person we either dated or was besties with where you were inseparable and then wham! They are out of your life. There are those who back away from you, (that never happens to me, I'm just telling a story here lol), and 3 months later you think to yourself, "wait a minute, I haven't spoken with so and so, but you know what? It's OK."
I guess that's why as we grow and move on or change our habits and goals, we should thank those that helped us along our paths even if we feel they didn't value us, they made us the people we are today. Sometimes that's good, sometimes it's not. It's up to you to see the difference.
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