Vertigo...the best dizzy condition there is....NOT

This week I had the delightful return of Vertigo. For those who don't know what this is, it's when your mind decides to f*ck with you. It's quite similar to having one too many adult beverages except when you wake in the morning, it doesn't leave. You experience dizziness, feeling foggy headed (which let's be honest, I already suffer from this without help), sometimes a headache will accompany it. The worst I had ever had was the very first time I was graced with this affliction. We were at my Mum's house celebrating her birthday, so it was August. I had a sinus infection a few weeks before and they thought maybe that triggered it. I go to get out of my parent's bed, since there was four of us, they gave us their room. Beloved #2 was 10 months, and just the cutest, naturally. He woke me up to change him. I picked him up, the room started spinning, and I literally, threw him to his daddy and ran to the bathroom to throw up. I then laid my arse down on the bathroom floor and didn't move. Baby daddy came in after an hour and dragged me out to the side of the bed because he needed to take a shower. Yeah, don't worry about me down here almost paralyzed, take your shower, yea, nice. I say paralyzed as any movement to my head and the room would spin and instant nausea hit.

After 8 hours of laying in this same spot, they called the ambulance as I was dehydrated not being able to drink and or eat. Great diet, right? Anyhoo, my Beloved #1 was soooo cute telling the paramedics to 'take care of my mommy'. Now he would probably just tell them to move me because I was blocking the TV and he couldn't play his games. Love you Skyler. :) My Mum rides with me to the hospital and they inject me with saline and then give me an anti-nausea medicine. After a few hours they let me leave since Mum was a nurse, they knew I would be ok. Back to bed I went and stayed there for 3 days as I could not sit up without puking. I have to do the unthinkable and let my baby daddy drive us from Chattanooga to our home in Lawrenceville. Haven't I suffered enough I ask?

Since that began  17 years ago I occasionally have a recurrence. Thankfully, nothing as bad as the initial time. Usually, it starts when I roll over to the right for sleep, and my body sends a message to my brain that says "ABORT! ABORT!" and I have to roll over either on my back or to the left.

There is no cure, but they give you meds like you were sea sick. I have tried accupuncture and this trick my ENT showed me. You'll love this little nugget, you lay on your side and wait for the spinning to stop and then you roll, yes I said roll, to the other side in a complete circle to move the crystals back into place. Basically, Vertigo is a condition where the "rocks" in your ears become loose and offset your balance. By doing this trick it's supposed to put them back in the correct spot. Sounds fun, right?

Hope you all have a lovely weekend and until we meet again, kissy kissy.

When A Man Loves A Woman? How About When A Woman Loves A Man?

There are movies called "When A Man Loves A Woman" but what about when our dumbarses love a a man? I have seen women drop their friends, lose all touch with reality and completely engulf themselves into their mans life. I had one count it uno boyfriend when I was in high school. And after a few months we both knew it was done. I have known friends who had to have a man in their life or they weren't complete or they weren't worthy to be in the world. UM WHAT THE F*CK DID YOUR MOTHER TEACH YOU? My Mum raised us to be independent, self sufficient and to love ourselves. Now, she wasn't Mother Teresa, meaning, that if she thought we looked bad she would ask us "Are you sure you want to wear that out?" So if we ask our friends now a thousand times, "do I look ok?' you know why. My dad was a dance teacher, manager and then owner of Arthur Murray Dance Studios. He worked late mornings and then would come home for dinner and then be back to work by 5 until 10 every week night. My Mum is a nurse and then she walked the hospital floors. She would work the night shift so that rarely, we would need daycare. My Mum worked up until a few years ago. She had long quit the hospital floors, but she was in management for a health care provider and spear headed a new program. I'm quite sure she was an excellent, proficient and thorough boss. I know what we had for a Mum. There was no pulling wool over this lady's eyes. Not gonna happen, like ever.

But what I took from that was, I never needed a man to pay my bills or complete me or even to survive. Even when she was younger her parents didn't send her to school with the attitude of 'catching a man'. God knows the one she did catch my grandmother wasn't initially thrilled with. My dad hailed from Canada, so my grandmother, who was very proper as a Dr's wife, called him "the foreigner". hahahahahah. But my grandmother was kind, independent and handled her business too. She didn't work outside the home, but she and my grandfather had such love and respect for each other, that sadly, I rarely see it now. My grandmother also showed you didn't NEED a man, but it was ok to WANT a man. But want him for companionship, love, friendship, not for his wallet or his social status.

When I see some of the girls today and listen to the reason they want someone around, I don't feel bad that I'm not married, engaged or have a boyfriend. I like doing things with my friends, without having to ask permission or get it cleared with him. And let me state that when I say "cleared with him" I mean that he makes my social decisions, not me saying 'hey I want to go here with so and so and him saying no". That doesn't happen with any man I date because if it did it would end quickly. If I tell you where, what with whom I'm doing things, that's ok, but if you feel you have the authority to tell me where, what and with whom, we have a problem. I don't do well with people telling me what to do. I'm a grown up, I got this.

In closing let me leave you with this. If you are liking someone and you want to share your life, do what feels good to you. But don't let them dictate who you see or who you become because then you are no longer the person they once were interested in. Change for you, change for your personal happiness, not someone else's. As always, kisses to you all.