I never want to see another Father's Day...

As I expected, Father's Day was horrendous. I have been dreading it since May, with all the E-mails of sales, and commercials on TV, then of course, the radio blah blah blah. I made sure my son's had gifts to give their Dad, but it was a very emotional day for me, Debra and our Mum. Thankfully, Deb and I were not alone. We went over to our friend Glenn's house, where his daughter shared the day with him. The pool was fantastic and just what we needed.

 We laughed a lot, and then towards the end of the day, Deb and I found ourselves total nut bags. Now, she is normally the nut bag all by herself, well she and our Mum, but I guess I'm getting 'softer' emotion wise, and I couldn't get a sentence out without crying. And to be clear, I wasn't all sobby-like, but the tears did flow, and quite honestly, they still are.

 I spoke with a friend of mine on my way home, and after hanging up with him, I thought "I need to apologize to him, I had no business talking to anyone, much less someone I like". I sent a 'sorry' text and being the great guy he is, he was completely cool about it. ( a little pun, but not everyone will get it).

Anyhoo, I am thankful I did have my sister to commiserate with though, since we are both suffering his loss, we both get what the other is feeling and going through and I hope I made it easier for her as well. We will being seeing our Mum next weekend as the hospice is having a "Remembrance Service" for people who passed in the same frame our Dad did. How much freaking fun is that going to be? Sooo looking forward to that, I cannot tell you how I am keeping the excitement contained. ;=

But like everything else, we will prevail and suck it up and carry on, because "We are strong, like Bulls!"

Hmmmmm

I've been on this weight loss program for 37 days, and so far have lost 28 lbs. I still want to lose more, and I know I will. This life style change has taught me to really look at the food we digest into our bodies. On this plan, I have eaten no processed foods, sugars, carbs and minimal fats. I always thought I ate fairly well anyway. I didn't eat fried, except for french fries, I ate a lot of chicken, fish, seafood, turkey that was either broiled, grilled or steamed. Yesterday the company I work for celebrated our 90th Anniversary, amazing I know. But they gave us a picnic and the food supplied was from one of my favorite eateries. It was BBQ but I chose chicken, a spoon of cole slaw, mac & cheese and baked beans. I took one bite of the mac & cheese and all I could taste was the salt, I took a bite of the slaw and it tasted 'off'. My lunch partner, who introduced me to this program, said 'your taste buds will change, things will taste different', and she was right. No worries, I'm not going to become this freak about what I eat to others, but I did realize that I have survived without less than healthy food and I liked it. I guess as we get older and more aware of the things that annoy our body, we have to adhere to the signs. For instance, I have been taking a water pill to reduce swelling, I was hoping after this program I wouldn't need to keep taking, so far no go. I didn't eat that much salt to begin with and on this plan salt is ruled out. No problem for me. However, because of the calorie restriction I haven't been able to do my "Workout By Jillian" tapes. Come Monday though, she is back in the DVR and Shelly and I will be killing ourselves to get toned. I say BRING IT ON JILLIAN! I got this!