And I'm a hot mess, but at least I'm hot right? But seriously, when my oldest son had his last play in high school, it was no big deal. He was fantastic, as always, but it didn't bother me. Same when he graduated. I mean yes, I did tear up, but it wasn't an emotional time for me leading up to his walk. But this go around, when Spencer had his last play, I was crying and couldn't even speak to him after the show. I hugged him and walked quickly to my car. It was awful. The whole walk I was talking to myself and almost annoyed with myself that I was showing this kind of emotion in public. I mean I do have standards people.
This past week I have friends whose kids are also graduating and every time I see their pictures I continue to dread my own ceremony tomorrow. People from work have asked about it and just them inquiring makes my eyes well up. It's so stupid and unlike me. But I think it's because he is the baby and he is a much younger soul than my oldest. Skyler is a lot like me. He hides his pain and just says "he's fine". I know that, but Spencer doesn't hide it and he is so sweet, gentle, kind, giving and thoughtful, that I worry what this world will do to him. He's had his first love and heartbreak and he handled that fairly well. I mean let's be honest, getting your heartbroken is never easy to get over. But releasing him to the wild, worry some world is scary for me. I want him to get out and experience everything but I don't want him to get hurt. Obviously, there is nothing I can do about it but just be there to guide, educate or support him in whatever he does. That's what being a parent is about, at least for me.
I'm sure once he walks and gets his fake degree at the ceremony, I will be teary but then it will be over. It will be just another memory for him and me. But I could not be more prouder of both my sons. They have turned out to be very giving, thoughtful, kind, charitable young men. Their Dad and I may not agree on pretty much anything, but we did do that right. So march on my 18 year old baby beloved. You got this!
Hugs and kisses to all of you and please be safe this holiday weekend. Muah!
Friday, May 27, 2016
Wednesday, May 4, 2016
Happy Birthday Candace!
Typically, when a friend has a birthday coming up I like to dedicate a blog entry just for them. Sort of like my cheapo birthday present, but filled with love, humor and always a good time. This will be no exception.
I first met Candace around 4 years ago I believe. As with a lot of us, I met her through another good friend and now Candace and I are best pals. She is about to turn the big 4-0, and doing so still makes her the baby of our group. She is super smart, hard working, dedicated to her kids and family and she's a pretty good friend too, just don't expect her to reply with haste to your texts. I wish I could say I was kidding, but alas, if I were drowning she would not be the person I texted for help. :) But if I wanted shots, she is most definitely the friend I need around.
Candace is married to an awesome guy we all love, Kenny, and not only does he have a full time job where he gets to work earlier than I do, that's 6am kids, but he plays amazing drums in at least 5 bands and then he will run sound for other bands around out lovely area. I call him the hardest working man in showbiz. Both of them are very caring and giving people and both of them make me laugh out loud, and if you know me, I'm loud. You always know when I am in the building, but I come by it honestly, both my parents are loud laughers too. Anyhoo, this isn't about me though.
So let's see, I've covered how we met, what a great person she is etc, what else? Oh I know, we are all very fierce Mum's and Dad's if anyone crosses our path or our kids, but Candace, who is the quiet, soft spoken one in our group, will cut a mutha effing b*tch if you mess, look at wrong, or harm any of her beloved children. In no way, shape or form, am I joking. I have seen it, it was scary too. You really do have to watch the quiet types. All that pent up niceness will just explode one day and dayum, you just got served, Candace style.
I wish nothing but great memories, fantastic health and wonderful years on my girl Candace. She truly is one of a kind and we are all better people for having her in our lives.
Kiss kiss, hug hug Candace, I love you to the moon and back. Happy Birthday!!!!
I first met Candace around 4 years ago I believe. As with a lot of us, I met her through another good friend and now Candace and I are best pals. She is about to turn the big 4-0, and doing so still makes her the baby of our group. She is super smart, hard working, dedicated to her kids and family and she's a pretty good friend too, just don't expect her to reply with haste to your texts. I wish I could say I was kidding, but alas, if I were drowning she would not be the person I texted for help. :) But if I wanted shots, she is most definitely the friend I need around.
Candace is married to an awesome guy we all love, Kenny, and not only does he have a full time job where he gets to work earlier than I do, that's 6am kids, but he plays amazing drums in at least 5 bands and then he will run sound for other bands around out lovely area. I call him the hardest working man in showbiz. Both of them are very caring and giving people and both of them make me laugh out loud, and if you know me, I'm loud. You always know when I am in the building, but I come by it honestly, both my parents are loud laughers too. Anyhoo, this isn't about me though.
So let's see, I've covered how we met, what a great person she is etc, what else? Oh I know, we are all very fierce Mum's and Dad's if anyone crosses our path or our kids, but Candace, who is the quiet, soft spoken one in our group, will cut a mutha effing b*tch if you mess, look at wrong, or harm any of her beloved children. In no way, shape or form, am I joking. I have seen it, it was scary too. You really do have to watch the quiet types. All that pent up niceness will just explode one day and dayum, you just got served, Candace style.
I wish nothing but great memories, fantastic health and wonderful years on my girl Candace. She truly is one of a kind and we are all better people for having her in our lives.
Kiss kiss, hug hug Candace, I love you to the moon and back. Happy Birthday!!!!
Friday, April 22, 2016
Death of an Icon
When you lose a celebrity, that you didn't know personally, I know we all feel bad for the family and the talent that has left us for a higher place. But when I heard about Prince passing, it felt like I lost a person, a friend that was trusted that has been there in my life for many years.
I first learned of the greatness that was Prince, in 1978 with the song "I wanna be your lover", oh how I loved that tune and would play it constantly. My father's dance studio also had the record because turns out it was quite danceable even in ballroom format. A nice swing if you will. Since this was pre-video days and internet, I had to rush out to see what this angel looked like. I was not disappointed. He was a beautiful looking man with a sexy bad boy glint in his eye. I was hooked. Sounds good and looks good? Sold!
Then when I got into a college, my dorm mate had a huge poster of Prince on her wall. It was him in the shower and it was brilliant! I remember walking into her room and just standing there in a trance. All his music rushed back and I felt like he was there with us in that room. Obviously, this was not the case, but you get my drift. Prince was all over Atlanta in the early 80's and he would come to venues and bring other talented folks like The Time and Appolonia it was just a great time to be a young adult. Other musicians who have passed this year like Bowie and Glenn Frey they were around earlier than I recall and I considered them another generation of music back then, but Prince was my generation much like MJ. I feel like Prince and I went through these last years together on the journey we call life with it's ups and downs but we were still having fun and doing our thing. Prince was a few years older than me, but his loss feels greater to me because he was there when I was young and he's always been there, for all of us Im sure, until yesterday. April 21, 2016 was the day the world lost an icon, a legend, a peacemaker, a man who made us think, who showed us where love is and how to sprinkle love, kindness, good thoughts and how to strive to be better people as a whole.
He will always be missed by the masses, but thankfully, we will always have his music. May we never forget the messages he wove so well in his many amazing soungs. Rest in Peace Prince Rogers Nelson.
I first learned of the greatness that was Prince, in 1978 with the song "I wanna be your lover", oh how I loved that tune and would play it constantly. My father's dance studio also had the record because turns out it was quite danceable even in ballroom format. A nice swing if you will. Since this was pre-video days and internet, I had to rush out to see what this angel looked like. I was not disappointed. He was a beautiful looking man with a sexy bad boy glint in his eye. I was hooked. Sounds good and looks good? Sold!
Then when I got into a college, my dorm mate had a huge poster of Prince on her wall. It was him in the shower and it was brilliant! I remember walking into her room and just standing there in a trance. All his music rushed back and I felt like he was there with us in that room. Obviously, this was not the case, but you get my drift. Prince was all over Atlanta in the early 80's and he would come to venues and bring other talented folks like The Time and Appolonia it was just a great time to be a young adult. Other musicians who have passed this year like Bowie and Glenn Frey they were around earlier than I recall and I considered them another generation of music back then, but Prince was my generation much like MJ. I feel like Prince and I went through these last years together on the journey we call life with it's ups and downs but we were still having fun and doing our thing. Prince was a few years older than me, but his loss feels greater to me because he was there when I was young and he's always been there, for all of us Im sure, until yesterday. April 21, 2016 was the day the world lost an icon, a legend, a peacemaker, a man who made us think, who showed us where love is and how to sprinkle love, kindness, good thoughts and how to strive to be better people as a whole.
He will always be missed by the masses, but thankfully, we will always have his music. May we never forget the messages he wove so well in his many amazing soungs. Rest in Peace Prince Rogers Nelson.
Thursday, March 17, 2016
This time of year....
Since today is St Patty's Day, I decided to type in green to be festive, cause I'm fun like that.
We are coming up on the 4 year anniversary of my Dad's passing. And to be honest, thankfully this past year was considerably easier than the first two. I still have good days and bad days, but for the most part, more good than bad. I know Dad is with me and we talk, again, because I'm fun like that. He had the best hearty laugh when something was really funny, which usually involved someone at the dinner table having a complete and total blonde moment. (I tear from typing this, but good tears)
My Dad was surrounded by females. I have a female sibling and all our pets were females, until we got his beloved Shep. But that was many years into all of us being there. I will have to do a blog solely on my Dad's love of his beloved dogs over the years. My Dad used to say that "it takes a real man to create a daughter". He was amazing that way. He never acted like he wanted boys, well with me. I was suppose to be the girl, and like a good girl, I listened. My sibling was supposed to be a boy so much so that they didn't even have a girls name picked out. She was named after the current hurricane that was blowing through south Florida. hahahahah. She was a whirlwind as a child too. But again, that's not this blog.
When I got pregnant is when my Dad expressed his interest in having a grandson. His comment was "I have two daughters, I don't need anymore girls". Again, I listen and complied. He got not one but two grandsons, you are freaking welcome Father. :)...but I always wanted boys too so it was a win win.
As I have shared before, my Dad went in for surgery in February and passed in April. But apparently, on this day 4 years ago, he told my sibling that "he just couldn't do this anymore". So this day is harder for her and I believe my Mum, but since I wasn't given this information until after he passed, it doesn't faze me as much as Easter. Four years ago Easter he passed away that Tuesday after. That holiday is more poignant to me than the Irish holiday is. And while it's been 4 years ago, some days seems like yesterday others seems like a lifetime ago. I guess because the people that surrounded me then aren't all the people surrounding me now. And that's ok.
Things change, people change, circumstances change and if we are smart and open, we change too. Hopefully for the good, but all any of us can ever do is our best. What's best for you, for your job, for your kids, pets and friends. As long as you are trying to be the best person, and doing things to help yourself or a friend in need, you can't go wrong. Just remember that. Take care of you and the rest falls into line.
Until we meet again, kiss kiss hug hug. And may all of you have a safe St Patrick's Day!
We are coming up on the 4 year anniversary of my Dad's passing. And to be honest, thankfully this past year was considerably easier than the first two. I still have good days and bad days, but for the most part, more good than bad. I know Dad is with me and we talk, again, because I'm fun like that. He had the best hearty laugh when something was really funny, which usually involved someone at the dinner table having a complete and total blonde moment. (I tear from typing this, but good tears)
My Dad was surrounded by females. I have a female sibling and all our pets were females, until we got his beloved Shep. But that was many years into all of us being there. I will have to do a blog solely on my Dad's love of his beloved dogs over the years. My Dad used to say that "it takes a real man to create a daughter". He was amazing that way. He never acted like he wanted boys, well with me. I was suppose to be the girl, and like a good girl, I listened. My sibling was supposed to be a boy so much so that they didn't even have a girls name picked out. She was named after the current hurricane that was blowing through south Florida. hahahahah. She was a whirlwind as a child too. But again, that's not this blog.
When I got pregnant is when my Dad expressed his interest in having a grandson. His comment was "I have two daughters, I don't need anymore girls". Again, I listen and complied. He got not one but two grandsons, you are freaking welcome Father. :)...but I always wanted boys too so it was a win win.
As I have shared before, my Dad went in for surgery in February and passed in April. But apparently, on this day 4 years ago, he told my sibling that "he just couldn't do this anymore". So this day is harder for her and I believe my Mum, but since I wasn't given this information until after he passed, it doesn't faze me as much as Easter. Four years ago Easter he passed away that Tuesday after. That holiday is more poignant to me than the Irish holiday is. And while it's been 4 years ago, some days seems like yesterday others seems like a lifetime ago. I guess because the people that surrounded me then aren't all the people surrounding me now. And that's ok.
Things change, people change, circumstances change and if we are smart and open, we change too. Hopefully for the good, but all any of us can ever do is our best. What's best for you, for your job, for your kids, pets and friends. As long as you are trying to be the best person, and doing things to help yourself or a friend in need, you can't go wrong. Just remember that. Take care of you and the rest falls into line.
Until we meet again, kiss kiss hug hug. And may all of you have a safe St Patrick's Day!
Wednesday, March 2, 2016
Forgive me Father for I have sinned....but then again, he knows that.
Happy March kids! With the arrival of this month we all know that means Spring is just around the corner, and then Easter. Who doesn't love the Easter Bunny? (yes, he is real, shut up)
In my lovely town in Georgia we had tee shirt weather yesterday and today I had to use my butt warmers in the car on my way to my job. It was very hard not to just keep hitting snooze and cuddle with my sweet puppy Gigi. This little lamb turned the big 1 on February 20, 2016. She had a small party of just family and her friend Stitch. And when I say family it was me and her Grammie because her human brothers thought it was too stupid to attend a birthday party for a dog. I really thought I had raised them better than that, but alas, they are adults now, I can only do so much.
As the warmer weather teases us it gets me excited for planting some vegetables in my garden, and putting mulch down on the lawn and planting a flower or two. Spring really is about new beginnings and a new promise to what we can do with our lives. All changes, for the most part, are up to us. I know sometimes things may seem out of our control, but you have to realize you are the only one in control of your life. If you aren't happy with someone, a situation, your job, your living area, it is solely up to you to make those alterations.
As I watch my beloved of a puppy grow and try to do sneaky things, like fake she went outside to do her business, it shows that even though things may seem the same, at the same time they change.
Look at your circle of friends last year and how many are still with you today? Did you have people you weren't talking to or fell out of touch with last year, that are prominent in your life now? I know my answer is yes. I have old friends that I see more now this year and I have others that have left my life, that were in it last year at this time. I know we have all seen that poster about people being in your lives for a reason, season or whatever the other rhyming word is, and to some degree it's accurate. Sometimes when people do come back into your life, that you were really missing, you wonder, should I let them go? Meaning things are as easy as last time or they may not truly want to be in your life, but they will allow you to do things for them. That's always so kind of them, right?
As I end today, I hope this made you think about things you were already pondering and wondering if you should make a change. If your change doesn't harm another and only brightens you and your outlook, then baby, what are you waiting for? Life is short, get out there and make your dreams happen. Only you can!
Hug hug, kiss kiss.
In my lovely town in Georgia we had tee shirt weather yesterday and today I had to use my butt warmers in the car on my way to my job. It was very hard not to just keep hitting snooze and cuddle with my sweet puppy Gigi. This little lamb turned the big 1 on February 20, 2016. She had a small party of just family and her friend Stitch. And when I say family it was me and her Grammie because her human brothers thought it was too stupid to attend a birthday party for a dog. I really thought I had raised them better than that, but alas, they are adults now, I can only do so much.
As the warmer weather teases us it gets me excited for planting some vegetables in my garden, and putting mulch down on the lawn and planting a flower or two. Spring really is about new beginnings and a new promise to what we can do with our lives. All changes, for the most part, are up to us. I know sometimes things may seem out of our control, but you have to realize you are the only one in control of your life. If you aren't happy with someone, a situation, your job, your living area, it is solely up to you to make those alterations.
As I watch my beloved of a puppy grow and try to do sneaky things, like fake she went outside to do her business, it shows that even though things may seem the same, at the same time they change.
Look at your circle of friends last year and how many are still with you today? Did you have people you weren't talking to or fell out of touch with last year, that are prominent in your life now? I know my answer is yes. I have old friends that I see more now this year and I have others that have left my life, that were in it last year at this time. I know we have all seen that poster about people being in your lives for a reason, season or whatever the other rhyming word is, and to some degree it's accurate. Sometimes when people do come back into your life, that you were really missing, you wonder, should I let them go? Meaning things are as easy as last time or they may not truly want to be in your life, but they will allow you to do things for them. That's always so kind of them, right?
As I end today, I hope this made you think about things you were already pondering and wondering if you should make a change. If your change doesn't harm another and only brightens you and your outlook, then baby, what are you waiting for? Life is short, get out there and make your dreams happen. Only you can!
Hug hug, kiss kiss.
Friday, January 29, 2016
Valentine's Day (this year Black Sunday)
As I've gotten older I have really come to loathe this day, and it's not for the reason you might think. I don't need ONE specific day to tell a special someone how much I love them. That needs to be done every day. I hate how we all buy into the hype of flowers, dinners, gifts, surprises etc. Now chocolate should be consumed daily, not just on February 14th. I mean come on, what are we cavemen?
Back in the day, I showered by boyfriends, or husband with gifts. I did special things, like post in the paper how much I loved him, or planned getaways. So I'm not immune in showing my love for someone. Once I got divorced my two beloveds became by Valentine's. Even when I had boyfriends, my two sons were #1 in my heart that day, well everyday.
Now they would look at me and roll their beautiful blue eyes at me, but that's a whole different blog. Beloved #2 has a girlfriend this year, so I'm sure he will do someone really fresh and sweet. He's that guy. He's the sweet sappy love muffin some of you dream about. I say some of you, because sometimes someone that sicky sweet makes me want to hurl. :)
As you can see this blog is quite short in comparison to most of my entries. I guess that's because this particular subject makes me violently ill. lol..
This year I will have my adorable puppy Gigi to shower with Valentine gifts. No chocolate of course, but she will get yet another new toy and absolutely the cutest little tee shirt or sweater to wear. I'm not totally heartless, just don't have much of a heart left.
Hugs and non Valentine kisses to you all. And if you choose to celebrate that dreadful day, do it! Go big, you never know if it will be your last one.
Back in the day, I showered by boyfriends, or husband with gifts. I did special things, like post in the paper how much I loved him, or planned getaways. So I'm not immune in showing my love for someone. Once I got divorced my two beloveds became by Valentine's. Even when I had boyfriends, my two sons were #1 in my heart that day, well everyday.
Now they would look at me and roll their beautiful blue eyes at me, but that's a whole different blog. Beloved #2 has a girlfriend this year, so I'm sure he will do someone really fresh and sweet. He's that guy. He's the sweet sappy love muffin some of you dream about. I say some of you, because sometimes someone that sicky sweet makes me want to hurl. :)
As you can see this blog is quite short in comparison to most of my entries. I guess that's because this particular subject makes me violently ill. lol..
This year I will have my adorable puppy Gigi to shower with Valentine gifts. No chocolate of course, but she will get yet another new toy and absolutely the cutest little tee shirt or sweater to wear. I'm not totally heartless, just don't have much of a heart left.
Hugs and non Valentine kisses to you all. And if you choose to celebrate that dreadful day, do it! Go big, you never know if it will be your last one.
Tuesday, November 24, 2015
Birthdays!
Remember when you were a kid and you were so excited to have a birthday party, or a sleep over ? Since my birthday falls around Thanksgiving mine have been tricky with coordinating parties or other things.
The one thing that I don't like about birthdays is sometimes it shows you no one likes you for real. LOL. I mean if you plan a party and people can't come, I take it personally. I know I shouldn't especially since it's the holidays, but for the most part, everyone wants to be liked. Even though I say how much I hate people, there are still some people I want to like me and when they don't, I feel like Jr High again. Not that any of these people are 'mean girls' but I view them as popular in our ring and who doesn't want to be popular, even at this stage in your life? I know some with say it doesn't matter, but on some level, it really does.
This year the blessing of my birthday falls on Black Friday. I hate shopping unless I'm going for a specific thing, and I hate traffic and crowds, so this day will be hell. Just kidding, it's going to be a beautiful, sunny, cool day and I will enjoy it no matter what. I will have breakfast with number #1 beloved then I have dinner with my 2nd beloved and my Mum. What more could a birthday girl ask for? Sure a beach trip would have been nice but I do love the cold, it goes better with my personality.
Wait, maybe that's why people don't like me. Hahahaha. I think I will look at me instead of pointing at others. As the saying goes, you can only control how you handle things, not how others do.
I hope everyone has a very happy thanksgiving and really, don't feel sad for me. I wrote this with some humor, yes I want to be liked but if you don't that's your loss, not mine anymore.
Hugs and kisses kiddies!
The one thing that I don't like about birthdays is sometimes it shows you no one likes you for real. LOL. I mean if you plan a party and people can't come, I take it personally. I know I shouldn't especially since it's the holidays, but for the most part, everyone wants to be liked. Even though I say how much I hate people, there are still some people I want to like me and when they don't, I feel like Jr High again. Not that any of these people are 'mean girls' but I view them as popular in our ring and who doesn't want to be popular, even at this stage in your life? I know some with say it doesn't matter, but on some level, it really does.
This year the blessing of my birthday falls on Black Friday. I hate shopping unless I'm going for a specific thing, and I hate traffic and crowds, so this day will be hell. Just kidding, it's going to be a beautiful, sunny, cool day and I will enjoy it no matter what. I will have breakfast with number #1 beloved then I have dinner with my 2nd beloved and my Mum. What more could a birthday girl ask for? Sure a beach trip would have been nice but I do love the cold, it goes better with my personality.
Wait, maybe that's why people don't like me. Hahahaha. I think I will look at me instead of pointing at others. As the saying goes, you can only control how you handle things, not how others do.
I hope everyone has a very happy thanksgiving and really, don't feel sad for me. I wrote this with some humor, yes I want to be liked but if you don't that's your loss, not mine anymore.
Hugs and kisses kiddies!
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